Initially I wanna post my feelings out only. But I happen to see PL's post before me. So I decide to post out all the messages in my phone to explain our misunderstanding

PL, Please do not feel offended that I post the conversations out.

Girls, maybe like what pl say, when she saw it, she feel upset. But I still decided to show it out is to let u all know at that moment how I feel and why I replied that way.

Before the conversation, I dunno you all planning anything and did not noe you check with HS on my sat event. No one dated me on sat. One of my Poly friends wanna meet me on that day to pass me stuff. But I have not confirmed with her. I haven confirm is to reserve for you all 8899 but I still have no news of you all to date me.

The conversation below: (My thoughts and feelings is in brackets)

TW (11.43pm): Hey, I hav changed pl birthday bbq from 2nd aug to 26 jul coz I can’t make it on 2nd Aug. so sorry. Really hoped that u all are able to make it. So let me noe whether u all can make it k. Any hardfeelin or prob do msg me. Thanks a million lot. (my thinking is “hmm, no one date me and still ask me attend ppl birthday” so I decided to reply in joking manner)

Jun (11.46pm): My birthday that day leh. Never celebrate for me still ask me celebrate for her. Win lo.

TW (11.49pm): Ai yah, sorry la. I really cannot make it on 2nd Aug. Got stand by. Sianz. I also dun wan crash with urs. U celebrate with pl la. Help me please.

TW (11.51pm): Sorry sorry. Hey. Btw how u celebrate ah. On Sunday? (no one date me, den now ask me celebrate PL birthday on my birthday. Den tell me mine celebration is on sun? hmmm. but if 8899 ok den I also nth to say. *sad*lonely*)

Jun (11.54pm): No secondary school ppl date me yet. Like so pathetic. Actual day go celebrate other ppl’s birthday den mine push to sun. If 8899 ok den I nothing to say lo. Anyway, poly friends will date me on actual day only we haven confirm.

TW (11.58pm): Whey. Sorry la. Really hav no choice. I cannot on 2nd ma. I book both weekend le lo. Then somemore cannot cancel. (*more lonely* means I have to see ppl celebrating with PL, no one celebrate for me.. ppl forget me??? *very upset*since let that, why make myself so pathetic, since poly ppl date me le, den confirm with them lo. So I decided to go meet poly friends instead.)

Jun (12.02am): Ok ok. It’s ok. Den you all go for hers la. That day I find my other friends lo. Honestly they dated me but I didn’t confirm as I tot 8899 wanna meet me.

TW (12.03am): But in e end they meet sun rite? Hey sorry ah. (haiz, repeat say meet sun again. *upset* dun even wanna date me for sat noon mehx? I dun wan belated celebration. No family ppl celebrate for me already. Haiz, should have listened to HS and open bbq on 26 jul, coz no one enthu for me at least I must enthu myself. 21st must be happy ma. I tot even closest 8899 so heartless? I dun wan belated celebration, like no one remember it so I replied the below)

Jun (12.06am): Wad meet on sun? Dunno la. You all heartless. I already by not opening any celebration on 26. If not our common friends all dunno which one to attend. Anyway dun need meet on sun la.

TW (12.09am): I dunno. I was asking. Wa so fierce for wad sia. Ask ya celebrate with pl le. Hmmm. I no choice ma. U think I wan crash with urs ah. If can 2nd I more happy loh. I already plan for 2nd le lo. (*very upset*fed up* I nv complain PL birthday celebration put on my birthday, TW still say me like I dun wanna celebrate with PL, fine, since he feel this way, I go find my poly friends, I dun wanna be so pathetic, so lonely that night at PL’s celebration. Since poly friends yi fan hao yi, I shld go. )

Jun (12.10am): Wah. Now you say until like I blaming you. I never fierce. I was upset. Forget it la. You all go ahead enjoy. I not attending. Not going to be so pathetic. Send my best wishes to PL.

TW (12.10am): Anyway. Sorry. I didn’t mean to…

TW (12.14am): No la. I nv say that. Actually initially was celebrate together de loh. But anyway still hav to say sorry to ya. Hope u understand. (celebrate together? PL rejected me long ago. Now tw still tok rubbish to me. *more fed up* i was so upset. So far only colleagues date me on 25th which is confirmed. And only 1 of poly friends say may meet me on 26 jul. HS gave me 21 presents. Looks like only HS and colleagues care abt me, others all no news. =< *very sad*fed up*)

Jun (12.18am): I wun believe. Initially I got ask pl if wanna celebrate together. Combined and invite our friends together. She rejected me. You can ask her to confirm. Ok. I dun need wanna argue with you. Now I know who really would care and celebrate for me. Thanks for your help.

TW (12.20am): She didn’t noe wat to do in e first place loh. Is I help her decide de ma. Since u wan put it that way then let it be ba.

TW (12.27am): Somemore she reject it coz she can’t hav chalet and go home late as her parents dun let. I myself ask her parents but still cannot lo. That’s y at that point of time cannot make e decision yet. (wad chalet? Tok even more rubbish. I did not mention any chalet thing with PL earlier on. I very upset, fed up with TW.. dun wanna reply anymore. And I decided to post online regarding this matter to apoogise and let pl that I very upset and will not be attending her birthday celebration.)

I dunno what you all feel after you all see this.
Maybe like PL is very upset.
But I am also very very upset that night when TW replied me that day.
I apologise to PL, also apologise to you all if you all angry with me because of the above.
Sorry, I am sorry.
But I still decided to post it out.
i just wanna be very honest and let you all noe how I feel at that moment.

After PL’s post, I only have to say;
Overall the incident is is caused by misunderstanding, no communication,
Maybe I am more to the negative sides.
sms also difficult to see one’s tone and feelings.

But I just wanna let you all noe, at that moment I really very upset.
Coz previously my family members already rejected me for the celebration le.
and HS’s parents really that time treat me good is because the 2 sisters nt around.
I felt so lonely. I feel no one care abt me. My mum even scolded me when I said I very upset abt relatives thing.
Which makes me very sad, really very very very upset.

I tot just this once 21st birthday celebration only. Why I cannot even have one…