Hi ladies,

how r u all? when is our next outing? let's plan!! Any news please update me.
PLEASE IGNORE FROM THIS POINT ONWARDS!!

coz i dun wanna to fan those who r already very fan nao. alot of things happened during this couple of weeks. i just hope to release some stress from her, not to bother you all. Have been very unlucky recently, too much to say.. haiz. I can't see my future. very lost in life, things r nt going well.

last wk on my way hm from work, at red hill mrt. This 30+ man wearing business shirt, quite formal stood behind me, to my horror, he was using a camera phone and took pictures beneath my skirt. I was wearing LONG skirt lehx, over the knee cap. Haiz. too stunned to react. when i wanted to shout, he ran away, also not sure if he really captured any pictures.

from june until now, ard 1 mth +, i come 3 time le. dunno y. is it because of too stress?? not sure. already lossin too much blood le. lk every 8-9 days den come again. should i see a doc? or heck care?

my job also giving me trouble, it is a middle man, communicate between ISO and experts of the industry. These experts so YAYA, nv take calls, nv reply e-mails. Then, my boss keep asking to me find this few person, set meetings, and communicate with them. I can't reach them, not once, twice or trice. It is alot alot alot alot alot of times. sometime very fed up with it. but cannot, still must act very gentle and polite when tokin to them. my eyes also going to spoilt. everyday look at computer. vision lk getting blurr..

sick of working. feel lk resigning. coz this job although say only look after medical side, they actually also asking me to handle alof of supply chain and productivity projects too. They didn't state this initially, i understand, they give pay, sure expect u work more than what u r being paid. Statutory board r lk tt. sick of it. i always reach office so early, at 8.05-8.10am. but actually start work is 8.30am. the director came and tok to me about work stuff. stupid lo.. can;t give me a break.

$$, another very troublesome issue. I hate them. it is the cause of trouble, but w/o them, i also can't survive. very tired of living in this money minded world. ever since 16. paying everything myself. den whole poly fees i pay. living cost also i pay. that time is only with a O'level cert. now graduated from poly, got diploma, parents askin for more. other than i paying everything myself, i need to pay for them also. tired. sick of life. i envy jasmine, she can just study. happily study. i didn;t blame my parents that they r unable to support me for education. honestly, i nv blame them. i also understand tt they are very xin ku to "yang" me. but i already paying everything myself already. They think it is time for me to contribute to the family. $450 monthly. i noe it is little for a household, but for me, looking at my monthly pay. i need to save as i still hope to study. I guess to study Uni is very far away dream.

debts, so much debts. i am nt tt strong. tired of life. tired of living. tired of job. stress. when i complained of stress abt job to my mum, she will scold me instead of consoling me. which end up makes me cry more. Initially, she still help me wash clothes, iron them. once she know i plan to resign, things changed. she order me to do housework. if i dun, she wun cook for me.. although i give household money. U all may think y my mum is lk tt.. i understand. She is just trying to get money from me whenever possible, so she can save, so when she is old and can;t work. at least there is $$ for them to use. Coz obviously my bro now, no savings, definitely cannot support them, and also dunno in future will support them or not.

LAst sat, quarrel with mum. coz bro wanna borrow $$ from me. i told my mum. den she say it's up to me if i wanna borrow or not. if i dun lend him, she say i;m SELFISH sister. if i lend him, and he din not return me back. my mum will say it is my own problem. my own decision coz i wanna lend him willingly. No matter what i do, also is my fault. anyway, shuan le. forget it. Maybe it is my own retribution. tired of work, tired of life. sick!